we're still thinking about it...

baby fever hit a few weeks ago. hard.

It began as we were packing away clothes we didn't want to keep (we had WAY too much for both kids, but especially Lily). Not all of our baby clothes, just the non-amazing, non-essential, heavily-worn, less-cute stuff. But there was a lot of that. Everything else we're keeping for my sister when she has kids. 'Cause we're done. Right? Right??

So I'm having a margarita of all things, and sorting through baby clothes. Brad at this point was already wavering on the vasectomy though we're certain we are adopting in the future. I felt it, told him, he felt it, we talked. We've been talking. We've been praying. For a few weeks.

Having a third baby was never in the plans, but it's been two weeks and I can't keep blaming the margarita or the baby clothes or that faitful night. Because it's sticking, so far. I'm still in the process of asking God "are you kidding!?" and contemplating if it could even work, if we even want it to, and including our adoption dreams to this potential reality. So right now we're still thinking about it.

*shakes head in disbelief*

warning: do not sort through baby clothes while having a margarita and expect to leave that event unscathed. un-fevered.


  1. I had a feeling in my heart this would happen, and I will be praying for you, Children are wonderful and a huge blessing, and its okay that your still waiting:)

  2. I'm in the opposite camp as you, I want more bio babies..but I'm at the point where I can barely comprehend going through it all over again (which is why we'll wait for awhile).

    1. Oh girl! Penny is just 3.5 months old! I didnt have baby fever for Oli at that time (though i did with Lily, but she was sleeping through the night at 10 weeks so i was spoiled). Oli is 10 months old and only now are we having these thoughts, so give it time. Youve got 7 months until youre where i am and no one says yours need to be as close as mine have been :)

  3. Anonymous3.10.12

    I am in the same boat as you. Also the same city! Which is how I stumbled across your blog. I go back and forth several times a day about whether to adopt from foster care, have a second bio or simply enjoy the one healthy child we have. A friend who is also dealing with Baby Fever said she just wished she could stop asking herself the question. Me too!!
    I'll keep checking in to see where you land.