Showing posts with label Sacrifices. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sacrifices. Show all posts

29.8.13

curve ball #4

This pregnancy has been full of curve balls. Unlike any other pregnancy we've had, we've known trial, we've known waiting, we've known uncertainty, we've known fear. Girlfriend wants us on our toes, apparently :)

Recently we experienced our forth curve ball.

first, a re cap, if you're lost :)

Curve ball #1: Not getting pregnancy easily. All of our pregnancies until now happened the first month we tried. This pregnancy took 6 months. Not forever, but it felt like it and we learned a lot in the waiting.

Curve ball #2: They couldn't find the heart beat at my first visit. Some others said this was normal and that it happened to them and they didn't worry at all - awesome. We did. My doctor did too, since my other two babies had super strong heartbeats as early as 10 weeks. Thankfully an internal ultrasound confirmed her beating heart and ours started beating again, too.

Curve ball #3: A mere week after the heartbeat fiasco, I had cramping in my lower abdomen so terrible I couldn't walk. Brad was in the States for an MDiv course and I was with the kids alone. I was in so much pain I was lying on the floor unable to get up. Friends took me to the hospital and I was sure I was miscarrying. I wasn't, and the pain never returned. Strange and terrifying.

Now we're up to date! I'm full term (prego stats will end now that we're so close to the end, if you were wondering!), and in the last couple of weeks, another curve ball.

Curve ball #4: Baby is transverse (horizontal in my womb) and then breech (head up in my womb) past 35 weeks. It's said that after 35 weeks, the baby should be in the head down position, because she runs out of room to move much after that. The vast majority of babies are head down by 35 weeks, and even more by 37 weeks. Generally by 37 weeks (today) if a baby isn't head down, she won't go head down. Doctors can attempt to manipulate the uterus and turn her, deliver the baby breech (which can have complications), or suggest a C-Section (which is also riskier than a vaginal birth and something I was hoping not to have for my final birth).

Little Sister was flopping between full-on breech and transverse constantly over the last two weeks. I could see every kick (in my side) and it was clear by looking at my stomach where she was. That's what happens when the baby is big enough and has not much room - her kicks and rolls become very entertaining and clear.

I had asked several friends to pray Thursday morning at 10:30am for my appointment, where we'd see for sure and then talk about my options. As of Wednesday night she was definitely breech still. I could feel and see that. And by 11:30am, she was head down, in perfect position for vaginal birth.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boom.

God answers prayer, sometimes so clearly it makes my eyes water.

This pregnancy has made us rely on Him constantly and I'm thankful for that. Now I can look ahead to a somewhat familiar experience (child birth) in the coming couple weeks and not have to worry about an all-new surgery with a long recovery (remember, I have no local family and two toddlers!).

Thank you Thank you Thank you, Jesus.

14.8.13

prego stats - week 33-34

Not bad having to only combine two weeks in one post after my recent 4 week catch up! But things are only getting busier so the week-by-week updates are getting more impossible. I just love having this as a a resource for when I'm looking back months and years from now. I loved having the info for Lily and Oli's pregnancies to compare with this time around, so I need to keep writing! Even if it's tiring right now and I'm lacking drive to say the least.



How far along: 33 weeks and 34 weeks.

Total weight gain: around 20lbs but I don't know for sure. I have an appointment where they'll weigh me in a week or so, and we don't care to own a scale here.

How big is baby: Durian Fruit (?) and Butternut Squash

Maternity Clothes: almost exclusively. 

Sleep: I'm finding it almost impossible to go to bed before midnight these days, but the kids occupy themselves together in the mornings fairly well, so I can usually sleep in until 7:30am or even 8:30am sometimes, which makes up for it. And naps, of course!

Best moment this week: my sister was in town to love on us and that was wonderful.

Movement: so much movement, and painfully so, because Baby girl; hasn't turned head down yet. Something I'm worried about 50% of the time. She's horizontal though, so it's not like she's completely upside down which bodes better for her getting into the head down position before birth, but it's less comfortable now because she is tall and her long body doesn't have room to be hanging out in my belly sideways. When she kicks which is often, it's really painful in my side.

Food cravings: everything!

Food aversions: nothing!

Gender: you know :)

Labor signs: Braxton Hicks still, but not too often.

Belly button in or out: out.

What I miss: Being able to bend over! I can't even pick up things off the floor anymore!

What I'm not loving: baby not being head down :(

What I’m looking forward to: meeting her and my 37 week appointment when I'll know more about her positioning and my options. So praying I don't have to have a c-section.

What I'm loving: time with Oli being my baby. I'm soaking it up!

Milestone(s): none I can think of!

25.7.13

prego stats - week 31

Look at me writing a prego stats post for ONE SINGLE WEEK. On the ball, folks! Let's just pretend my most recent post wasn't a month's posts in one :)

How far along: 31 weeks!
 
Total weight gain: 18ish lbs?

How big is baby: a pineapple! that's weird because I have one on my counter and can totally picture that... and it's big!

Maternity Clothes: yep! except one pair of Gap shorts that aren't maternity but were slightly too big before pregnancy and are low-rise. 
Sleep: so hot guys! but I am getting at least 7 hours a night, and often more, so it's more than I'll be getting when baby girl comes :)

Best moment this week: Lily has been gone all week camping with my family, and Brad has been in Louisville, so it's just been Oli and I! So fun to dote on him and have more rest too.

Movement: LIKE WOAH. Come over around 8-10pm and see little sister go NUTS in my tummy. It's sure a show!

Food cravings: just general junk... not the best cravings but I'm only splurging once in a while. 

Food aversions: zero! so nice to have my appetite back 100%.

Gender:girl

Labor signs: actually, YES. I know, not REAL labour signs, but Braxton Hicks contractions started this week. It's definitely false labour and I'm not concerned (neither are my doctors) but they are odd and sometimes annoying. They mostly occur at night before bed after she's been really active. I forgot how strange contractions (non-painful ones) feel! Like you are flexing your whole torso - which of course hasn't actually happened in months since I don't actually have in tact stomach muscles!

Belly button in or out: out

What I miss: I'm walking a lot slower these days and I can't wait to be back up to pace with normal people again! And my bump is starting to get in the way of a lot - cleaning, caring for the kids, bending over to pick something off the floor - all very difficult tasks with a HUGE bump in your tummy.

What I'm not loving: the heat, but it's cooled considerably this week so I can't complain.

What I’m looking forward to: MEETING HER! Now it's starting to feel legitimate. She is coming in a matter of weeks! I'm in the middle of my third trimester with only 9 weeks left if she comes full term. So so so so excited!

What I'm loving: being pregnant, no back pain, enjoying my kids, knowing she's coming soon.

Milestone(s): Braxton Hicks.

12.6.13

prego stats - week 25



Total weight gain: 11-12lbs (not 100% sure)

How big is baby: a rutabaga whatever that is :)

Maternity Clothes: yes, sir.

Sleep: Most days now I go without a nap and am OK with 8 hours at night. But probably every third or forth day I absolutely need to sleep when the kids are taking their naps. It catches up with me, it seems.

Best moment this week: coming home from holidays, adjusting back to being with our kids (it took a few days, for sure!), seeing our church family again, eating great food from my new cook book, etc (it's been a good week!)

Movement: SO much movement. The baby is hardly ever sleeping/still! She does somersaults instead of kicking now, and it's exhausting but fun.

Food cravings: just food, period. I'm eating a LOT.

Food aversions: none.

Gender: GIRL GIRL GIRL. still so excited.
Labor signs: n/a

Belly button in or out: out

What I miss: energy, ability to do more physically with my kids (parks, walks, carrying them whenever)

What I'm not loving: nearly-debilitating back pain has begun, similar to during my final month with Oli, except I still have 3 months of pregnancy. NOT COOL. I am wearing a maternity support belt all day, taking Tylenol regularly, and neither seems to be helping much at all. Hopefully it's not 15 more weeks of this nonstop!

What I’m looking forward to: my baby shower that my girl Morgan is throwing for me! I didn't get one with Oli (understandably), but was so touched when my friend offered to throw me one for baby3!

What I'm loving: being reunited with the kids again, being home, knowing babygirl is doing well (I had two appointments in the last few days - glucose test + check up and both were great!)

Milestone(s): have a name, are researching cars and new carseats to fit three kids in a non-van :)

26.4.13

Pregnancy Sweet Spot (aka middle of the 2nd trimester)

Guys. Life is GREAT. At any given time, sure, there are things a prego in my shoes could complain or worry about. The leg and foot cramps have begun. Already. Any day now I'll be too big to carry both of my toddlers down the stairs at the same time, and then how the heck are we supposed to leave the house? But those thoughts can wait. Because pregnancy is so sweet right now.

Why?

Baby is starting to kick, but not in a painful, annoying, ruin-your-sleep kind of way. More like in a sweet, gentle, reminding-you-I'm here kind of way. And I love it! It wasn't too long ago I was in the ER with a friend (Brad was out of town) with severe cramps, sure I was miscarrying. Those kicks are signs of life for me and I am so thankful for every.single.one.

Nausea and vomiting are gone, and I haven't felt those wicked symptoms in weeks. I also haven't had to take the anti-pregnancy-nausea pills in months, which made me even more exhausted than I already was. I can enjoy food as a result, and cooking and baking too.

I'm showing and maybe even glowing. I don't know about the last part - but I've heard it once or twice. Probably more the glow you get when you haven't showered in a couple days and your kids are making you laugh and it's finally hot outside and you've been chasing the toddlers around. That glow, that's not at all related to pregnancy, is probably more the one I have, but I'll take the compliment :) And showing is great because people always give me their seats on the metro and I get a lot of smiles and kindness from the general population at large.

Our kids can see I'm pregnant and they're excited. Lily didn't know what the heck was happening when she was 4.5 months old and I ran to tell her the good news that she was going to be a big sister. Obviously.  But now she's 2.5 years old and well aware, she's even told us without a doubt that the baby is a girl! And even Oli understands a bit - at least much more than she did when I was pregnant with him! He kisses my tummy and says "baby!" a lot and cuddles it too.

I have some energy again, so I'm enjoying it. The 1st trimester and 3rd are often just such a blur of exhaustion, but the 2nd trimester really is grand. Some moms I know say they've never had more energy, and while I can't relate to that, I am feeling so much better than before that it seems that way. I'm loving taking the kids out in this nice weather and getting things done during some naptimes if I'm feeling extra empowered.

I'm realizing that my 3rd child is coming... soon! The 1st trimester is all about survival. I don't think much beyond the toilet bowl. I can't pretend I spend those early weeks dreaming of the baby who is being knit together in my womb. I'm thinking about what I ate last and how it's making me want to vomit. But now, I'm in a place where I can prepare, dream, and long for our third little sapling. I've begun buying some things we need (some cloth diapers in size 1, a car seat, etc), and I've started to prepare and get excited even for breastfeeding. I know September will fly by (and baby could come any time that month too!) and we have a busy summer ahead so he'she will be here before we know it!

it's a sweet sweet time and I'm savouring every last drop.


15.4.13

prego stats - week 17



How far along: 17 whole weeks!

Total weight gain: 5 lbs

How big is baby: an onion

Maternity Clothes: yes, sir! 

Sleep: It's funny. The 2nd trimester brings more energy, to be sure, but I still have the odd day where I can hardly scrape myself off the couch/bed/floor/laundry heap. Today was one of those days. I skipped napping this morning because I slept for a good 8 hours last night and felt rested. Plus someone was coming over to buy some old cloth diapers from me that I listed on craigslist, in the middle of nap time. And then I went out on a walk with Morgan and the kids and felt great. Until about 3:30pm. OH MY WORD. Morgan left around 4pm, and at 4:45 I woke up on the reading ottoman corner in the kids room, no idea how I got there. Ladies and gentlemen, THAT is what you call tired.

Best moment this week: feeling baby movement and planning for baby #3 has been so fun!

Movement: YES! Occasionally I feel it, and I love it. It's so reassuring and I am reminded of the great gift I'm carrying each and every time. Need to remember that when the movement is less joyful and more painful and inconvenient in the 3rd trimester :)

Food cravings: I'm eating Lebanese take out right now. Does that answer your question?

Food aversions: Still some meats, but basically nothing anymore.

Gender: FIFTEEN MORE DAYS, PLAYERS! I can't wait to find out. Vote on the sidebar for the sex you think it'll be. Because it's fun, and for no other reason :)

Labor signs: n/a

Belly button in or out: Out.

What I miss: energy, my old clothes, the days before stretch marks (but that was 3 years ago...)

What I'm not loving: Constipation like woah. Is that TMI?

What I’m looking forward to: OK this deserves a post all to itself, and one is coming this week, but get this: NURSING. I know, me, who had two horrific experiences complete with poor latching, low supply, mama guilt like woah, evil laleche ladies telling me I'm a bad mom and all the rest of it.... I am excited to try nursing again. 

What I'm loving: Oli kissing my tummy and saying "baby!" all the time, and Lily asking if she can "hold" the baby (and then putting her two little hands on either side of my bump). These two are going to be great big siblings!

Milestone(s): 2nd trimester, movement, and breast tenderness and tingling (signs of milk production, we hope!).