boys and girls

Most of you know that I'm a girl's girl. My hobbies include shopping and baking and I have never even thought about the reality that I could be the mom of boys, or even all boys.

I think it all began when my parents didn't have sons. And then my aunts and uncles closest to us didn't either. It was a girl's party. My cousins Maggie, Sarah, and Alysha were the extended family we spent the most time with, leaving zero room for boys to enter the brain. Then there were my dolls/barbies/imaginary friends: ALL GIRLS. Noticing a trend here? Not to mention I've never been the girl who's best buddies with guys... All my closest friends throughout the years have been Caily's, Tess's, Missy's, Catherine's, and Jamie's... GIRLS.

Naturally this is could all change in 6 weeks and I think it's just hitting me recently. Of course Brad is probably the most comfortable with boys since he has only brothers and I'll be thrilled no matter what the sex is, but part of me is a bit nervous of the potential of having a boy, or down the road, all boys. Can I swing it? I'm no hockey mom and I don't really "get" boys. But who knows?

At church I taught Sunday school today and there are two boys (brothers) who I adore. Miguel and Manuel. I thought to myself today: if my kids are like these, I could do boys! Often I get epiphanies like this, you know seeing the great things that boys bring to the table that girls can't, or thinking about how great it would be to "gain a daughter instead of lose a son" as they say in marriage, or the possibility for my future daughters having an older brother always looking out for them. I never had that and always was slightly jealous of those who did.

So we'll see. My 20 week ultra sound where I get to know the sex is in 6 weeks. I'll keep you all posted, and in the meantime, any advice on boys is welcome!

mm @ 14 weeks!

Ooo a lemon! But sweet not sour. Sweet because it's been over a week since I've last thrown up, sweet because my baby bump is noticeable making it more fun being treated and recognized as a pregnant woman (a lady on the train asked me how far along I was yesterday: MADE MY DAY), and sweet because 14 weeks is a good chunk of time. In other words, I DID IT :)

The 1st trimester is officially finished (they count these things in a really weird way, counting the 2 weeks before you conceive as part of the 40 total weeks of pregnancy)! I'm now a 2nd trimester prego, meaning I start more regular appointments with my doctor, I get to hear the heartbeat at my appointment on March 2nd (NEXT WEEK!) and in about 6 weeks we'll know if we're having a baby boy or girl!

IN OTHER NEWS...
I even chose the colours for our nursery which won't actually be in this house (Lord willing). We're hoping to be able to buy an apartment/condo/flat in the Fall, a couple of months after MM is born. So for the first couple months we're not going to move out our office and guest room from the additional bedroom, we'll just all party together with MM in his/her bassinet since they'll be feeding pretty much around the clock anyway.

This was kind of difficult since I had to choose the colours not really knowing what the room size or shape would be, but we went with orange and light green (not those exact shades though!). This part was so fun especially since I'll get to use some of the beautiful fabrics with my new sewing machine to make baby bedding, curtains, decorative pillows and am even going to cover a foot stool. I can't show pictures of the fabric now because I left it at home for my cousin to deliver when she comes since I was already on the train with lots of luggage, but it is inspired by rooms like this:

grandparents and belly buttons

*sigh*
I'm at home right now for a couple of days with my parents {note: my old home in Fonthill, not my new home in Montreal} and am head over heals for their grandparent tendencies!

Dad proudly rubbed my belly as soon as I came in the door and then urged Mom to "get the bag out, get it out!!" and Mom reappeared in a minute with a bag of toys they've been saving that friends have given them and even Baby Genius DVDs! They're both so excited and it's making me even more excited, which is a good thing since lately I've almost been forgetting that I'm actually having a BABY in 6 months. Wow. Reality check.

In other news, my belly button morphed in the last 24 hours and is now unrecognizable. I've always has an "inny" and still technically do, but there's no difference now, the skin is all the same "level" if that makes sense. I can run my hand over my belly button and don't feel any difference. Also, I used to have a belly button ring in high school, and if I still had it, it would have no skin to pierce since my tummy is starting to bulge. And all this happened in a DAY. It scared me at first, then fascinated, and now I'm just plain old excited since it's another sign of a growing belly, thus baby :)

Dad's now taking me to the local fabric store to look for fabrics for me to put in my nursery - talk about desperate to spend time together, I think it's the last thing he wants to do! Loving home right now so much!!

mm @ 13 weeks!

Hello MM! You're the size of a shrimp! Weird! The craziest thing I learned this week about MM is that at 13 weeks, MM developed fingerPRINTS. MM already has fingers and even finger nails last week, but fingerprints is beyond cool. I wonder what they looks like? I can't wait to put MM's hand and foot prints in ink and frame them, and then do the same with all of my babies :)
WHat an amazing development... Baby's growing inside of you is truly miraculous :)

getting excited

Recently I've been frustrated with feeling ill and not seeing any strong "results" of my symptoms (i.e. not a huge baby bump that people can recognize). It also has just seemed like FOREVER since I took that positive pregnancy test way back in 2009 (just saying '09 makes it seem even more long ago!)

Either way, I was loosing sight of what's actually happening inside of me. Growing a baby and all. So I took some great advice from Jamie and started getting excited about the baby to be born in August. And sure enough even little things like looking for cribs on craigslist, deciding what baby things (i.e. strollers) we want, and talking about middle names (we've decided our girl first names for the next TWO girls, but boys are still hard, for first or middle names) has got my moods much higher :)

It's getting more real to me as we went public with the pregnancy last week, plus the 13 week mark is tomorrow and I am starting to actually FEEL pregnant (and not just sick). I think part of not getting too excited was a defense mechanism in case anything horrible were to happen, but I'm deciding each day now to be thrilled and anticipatory about this and not worry about what will probably never happen.

COME mini morrice!!!